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Current Residence: in exile
Favourite genre of music: omnivorous - sdorr on youtube
Favourite photographer: Curtis, Vishniac many
Favourite style of art: ...omniverous
Personal Quote: When you depart, no one will ever say
"he should've spent more time at the office"
"I' am in a duel to death with this wallpaper. One of us has to go."
Oscar Wilde....shortly before his death

N.B., I've been on DA for about 11 years, first as ainsophaur2 (some other Hebe here
actually knew the same word!!!) ....and lightsource..... and... as artin2007, for prurience,
in recent this time, all the prurient works on the last are in storage.... Richard Burtan's wife Isabell 
will probably delete many of those... One of the loveliest Divas on the world stage suggested 
the name dofaust, since we were both quite aware that Gounoud's piece would never
be heard or occur to my ex, who, the witty Diva insisted, I should refer to as "A1" - and herself
as "A2" -- since they shared the same birthname. Which A2 preferred her confidantes to use.
For several years, I had quite a muse, and a most pleasurable immersion into the inner circle
of the world of Opera....

Attractive women are always limited in their intellectual development. Its inevitable.
All the attention is distracting. Its simply nature at work. If you are being pursued,
you simply don't have as much access to a rich inner life.  when looks go, 
later in life, its more difficult to cope with those who have been unattractive
and undistracted most of their lives.


Its always a good time for a good one: 


Time flies like an arrow. Fruit flies like a banana.

Room service? Send up a larger room.

Who are you going to believe, me or your own eyes?

Those are my principles. If you don't like them I have others.

He may look like an idiot and talk like an idiot but don't let that fool you. He really is an idiot.

I never forget a face, but in your case I'll be glad to make an exception.

A child of five could understand this. Fetch me a child of five.

From the moment I picked your book up until I laid it down I was convulsed with laughter. Someday I intend reading it.

Ice Water? Get some Onions - that'll make your eyes water!

You know I could rent you out as a decoy for duck hunters?

You've got the brain of a four-year-old boy, and I'll bet he was glad to get rid of it.

A man's only as old as the woman he feels.

Why should I care about posterity? What's posterity ever done for me?

Why, I'd horse-whip you if I had a horse.

Military justice is to justice what military music is to music.

I must say that I find television very educational. The minute somebody turns it on, I go to the library and read a book.

I have had a perfectly wonderful evening, but this wasn't it.

If I held you any closer I would be on the other side of you.

I don't care to belong to a club that accepts people like me as members.

It is better to have loft and lost than to never have loft at all.

I was married by a judge. I should have asked for a jury.

Either he's dead or my watch has stopped.

Remember men, we're fighting for this woman's honour; which is probably more than she ever did.

Women should be obscene and not heard.

Time wounds all heels.

Why was I with her? She reminds me of you. In fact, she reminds me more of you than you do!

Behind every successful man is a woman, behind her is his wife.

As soon as I get through with you, you'll have a clear case for divorce and so will my wife.

Outside of a dog, a book is man's best friend. Inside of a dog, it's too dark to read.

Quote me as saying I was mis-quoted.

Groucho Marx 1890-1977


A long and pleasant outing to The Legion Of Honor in SF on Father's Day
 (Intimate Impressionists...for a 3rd a sea of art...overwhelming....) 
And....still....too many ghosts to visit old haunts in Redwood Estates
Nelson D's LifeAintKind edges inexorably toward publication! an ordeal for him! But now a reality.
To Sausalito, Twin Peaks, Monterey, twice, with son and daughter
From Sfran to SCruz and Back on Hwy 1 with son and daughter - many nooks and crannies
(and crooks and nannies...)
Yahrzeit for Dad at Sherith Is.  
To Sausalito and long walks, and some striking art galleries...
Preparing....a mini-exhibit-whole-showcase scheduled for all of September in Fresno
Yom H'Shoa

Happy Passover Chag Pesach Sameach 5774

 A very happy day driving along Hwy 1 from San Francisco to Santa Cruz
and back, this past weekend, with my youngest daughter, and my son.
A bit of a solitary Seder etc today, but more to come this week...


“I think it is all a matter of love; the more you love a memory the stronger and stranger it becomes” 
― Vladimir Nabokov…

This day, The Ides Of March, brings an end to a very stormy week, for myself, and son, 21.
An educational week. Cherchez La Femme.

A memorable poker group gathering in Santa Cruz  - less time on medical histories than ever buddies
were amazed at the rejuvenated..... player (...a vast improvement in my Texas Hold-Em!)
I WAS Werther by dofaust

Moral support for an author and his 10 years of work to get his final manuscript to publisher

A Memorable wedding at Shirith Yisrael in San Francisco - a most beautiful temple

Sherith Yisrael San Francisco by dofaust

The complex and endlessly depressing closing of my house of 30+ years in the Santa Cruz Mtns -  haunting memories & sleeplessness

...installing SQL Server + new schemas for water widgets, basically the same t-sql the past decade++

....rereading  LOTR - enjoying the movie extended soundtracks...good to hear at rare intervals

....continuing the massive Chagall bio - an art history course! ... continuing poems and readings to upload

"The Last Survivor" - good genre movie seen with Son

Finished Vladimir Nabokov's controversial novel I last read at 14 and saw Lionel Trilling Interview the author

"August: Osage County" ...memorable....some over-the-top scenes...
Several trips to Pacific Grove-Monterey with my son and daughter


Christmas Eve '13 - In past Years Full of Anticipation: 

The Nutcracker in San Jose with all my children: 

They were happy with the Ballet's Music 

And to be all together with Dad

Tchaikovsky is a blessing taken for granted too long 

And A supper from Israel afterwards 

And back to an quiet solitary exile with 

Upton Sinclair of all people..."Oil!"...

not very Christmasy!

Many thanks to all my friends and colleagues, just for being, 

There are many that I am overdue to send good thoughts, 

crits, favs, etc defect of  DA!

 and special thanks to those who sent b-day greetings - 

esp. since I am soooo bad at that, myself!


The Artist - and sometime Poet - Speaks!

Personal Events In Recent Years

The Enescu Festival September 2013

TV Mini-Series: Thrones

Resurrecting My Own Poetry

Seferis, Auden, Tolkien remain nearby



The Artist - and sometime Poet - Speaks!

Cyrano's "No Thank You" Soliloquy::  CYRANO's NO THANK YOU SOLILOQUY by dofaust
A touch of Tennyson, read by moi: Tennyson .... a bit of reading by artin2007


Personal Events Highlights In Recent Years


  My new abode is largely empty, and a year ++ of unpacking and design remain...
  hundreds of pictures to hang, repair, or repair/matte..... thousands of books and
  records - now would be the time for setting up a bookshop!!!!

  Arson fires in my first months in YLP!!!! .....culprits lived less than a mile away!

  A blazing Summer in YLP....much like Fresno...

  Attended  a glam wedding on the lawn at the Legion Of Honor in SF, the
reception then primarily in the Rodin sculpture galleries. I appeared to be the
 only one so naif as to be hypnotized by the paintings and sculpture.

  Cirque du Soleil the movie with the children.... stunning.... but....cold, though....

  The Spring Poker Gathering at Bass Lake, a spectacular visit to Yosemite - we are
  planning a hike up one of the steeper trails of Halfdome, next spring. Well, 3-4 of us
  who _may_ have the guts! The group also saw my new abode - 30+ miles away in
  Coarsegold - and approved it.

  Les Miserables...the movie....wonderful, if one likes Recitative from beginning to
  end, and no discernible beginning or end to the melodies - NOR rhythm  anywhere -
  a talented first-year composition student could have done MUCH MUCH better...a shame given the great story...
  Boardwalk Golfing with Becky and outings several times to Monterey and Carmel
  and several times chilling-out at Twin Bridges, Santa Cruz. (Possibly her last summer
  at the Rwd Est pool - and the first time I have not been there with her.... too painful, that....)alt Disne

  First visit to the Exploritorium in SF with Becky and David. An amazement! An entire pier!

  A second visit to the Walt Disney Family Museum at the San Francisco Presidio. (Next door to the barracks I spent my
  last Army summer camp in! Memories!)
  (2013, 2014 cinema - new - and re-seen...perspectives to follow:)
  American Graffitti
  Arthur Rubinstein, Love Of Life
  Mephisto Waltz
  Whistle Down The Wind
  To Kill A mockingbird
  Bridge To Terebithia
  Snow White And The Huntsman
  Narnia (versions from several decades)
  The Hobbit 1,2
  LOTR (extended versions)
  Ride The High Country
  Adieux, Les Enfants
  Belle De Jour
  Cirque du Soleil 
  I, Frankenstein
  The Master
  A Late Quartet
  Zero Dark Thirty 
  The Lone Ranger
  Hangover part 3
  The Impossible
  Olympus Has Fallen
  Iron Man 3
  Star Trek Into Darkness
  Pacific Rim
  Man Of Steel
  Captain Phillips
  Bad Grandad

   Started work in earnest at a startup - but an unreliable and dishonorable entrepreneur...
  loose ends from my move - the Piano will be the last to come - came....
  it appears... Hanon--- here I come hahahaha
  Abandoning Rhonda B - finally received her message - after more than a decade 
  of wonderful conversations -and -     when I needed those most... I have those good memories anyway.....
    - she prefers a plainer, duller sort - but handy around the house! Good luck to he!
  Super Bowl weekend in SCruz with almost lifelong friends- and a call to a
  classmate in NZ   .....girding loins for a return to resist an evil Judge and other legal adventures
  seeking JUSTICE..... that is a slow process, continues....

  A few visits from my two youngest children, to Coarsegold.... the first time in 5 years + that we three are under
    the same roof....a special time for a Dad unjustly punished by a judge who is a combination of Jean Valjean's
    Judge - and Cotton Mather - melded into one... hope remains for justice from the Feds and ACLU...

  More progress unpacking... including making curtains, repairing furniture, local fires from arsonists come close ...!
....and...shoved aside a few tons to make room for a big H-Davidson of my brother's.... glad to return favors!

 ..a wonderful Yom Kippur 5774 at Sherith Israel - great music, that was very 
 comparable to that of Shir Hadash, in quality and spiritual depth...

  Moving my brother's H-Davidson that was shipped from SArabia - a bit of an adventure that ended fine.
  Another - but costly adventure - shopping for engines, but finally....rebuilding my Saturn engine, to pass the CA smog tests!
  (Note, much labor, including car mechanics, is often 40%+ less a few hundred miles away from big cities.)

  Also in September 2013: Trips to Twin Bridges Beach in Santa Cruz with my two youngest (15, 20) children.
  Next: moving my son, 20, in to live with me, and preparing his likely room: a fairly large RV, which he likes,
  but which needs to be emptied, since its been a storage locker! ?? Where to put several thousand books,
  and a like number of LPs? (The garage is also full! a storage shed is in the offing...ha .... downsizing is
  on the agenda in years ahead, except for art, music, and only a fraction of my library!)

  Disappointment at not being able to disengage to travel to visit relatives old friends, and special DA friends

Earlier Years:

  a very good year at PGE
  many trips with the family to Berkeley - North Berkely and Albany - SF, esp. Japantown, Chinatown, and North Beach
  one engagement with a pro photag in SF - great shots of me in business attire
  (the one and only engagement with a pro - it didn't take long for me to realize I could do better myself)
 continuing digital art experiments - since 1999 --....artsig
  ...finishing engagement at PGE...could've stayed longer
 a frustrating short engagement at EDS after PGE - they wanting mainframe skills long unused, dormant
 some tough times financially

 my first letters and communiques with a certain muse, at Artsig
 started a rather good engagement at Sandisk
  finished a longish engagement at Sandisk in Sunnyvale - remembering many blocks of empty office bldgs
  A hellish engagement in Ft Smith Ark at Beverly - an emotional and bad consulting manager 
   however, a beautiful old town - my last visit with Uncle Loren -  and a drive to Grove
  This year, and as all preceding, for a decade, and all subsequent, weekly outings with my children....
  With the children, always, countless pleasures in parks, walks, cinema, beach, golf, Santa Cruz, SF
Late in the year, after much correspondence with an unknown lady at an 
    art site, she reveals more of herself to me re her work as a professional 
    musician -      a prominent one, who relishes Art as an escape from the
    stressful world of the Opera - from the inside, at least....she becomes a muse
    My muse attempts intervene and to reconcile my wife and I - to no avail

   My first classroom experience in Music for many years - a survey of the Opera
  The muse reveals herself in actuality, during the first class I have attended in 
  many years - a history of Opera - I revel in a new art form and my new
  muse....I learn much  
   I start an engagement as an employee of an unusually sympatico IT company, 
  This winter is a harsh one for my muse - a child lost - more mistreatment by her abusive spouse
  My Muse and I correspond and communicate much, perhaps too much for the Net

  Much of the year banished to my cottage, a strange and unexpected "accident",
 cookies from Erin(!)
  Betrayal by a My Muse
  A meeting with the Muse backstage, Jeanne as photographer at Zellerbach Hall
     in Berkeley, after her recital - I said the wrong thing to the muse, she turns her back and walks 
      away...Her potty-mouth teenage daughter blasts me online as a proxy... I  --
       - but apologize several times - The Muse's staff knows nothing, and communicates nothing
   I continue living in my cottage - a big mistake not to have continued, in retrospect...
   The estate estate "bubble" in the US hits me, I loose - big-time- my BK 13 follows
   Arthritis pain prevents me from walking more than a few hundred feet w/o having to rest the ain...
   Oracle buys a smaller, successful IT company -- my employer, and unpleasant cultural changes ensue,
      of course.
   I move out of my cottage, and return to under the same roof as my children
   Travels for Oracle to MN, Virginia Beach, The Oregon ISO in Portland
   Meet old friends John and Deirdre at Moss landing.... I can barely walk a few hundred feet
   An adventure, long-planned, disappointed, and with it, a return to a more realistic world view
   My first serious surgery - orthopedic - and, thankfully, the end of many years of pain
   Confined to a hellish "old age" center - for "rehab" after my operation - against several who
     advised against this - but refused comfort and shelter by my Ex at my own house....
   ....earlier memories of 2009:
  A good conversation with Tom Steen and Bronc (last of the male Jacksons)
  Good movies with David and Becky: Avatar (beautiful) and Sherlock Holmes (revisionist)
  Extreme anxiety + pain + unproductive at Oracle  in the runup to surgery all thiis year
  A Trip to Disneyland with David, Becky, Suzie
  Dean Kanas stranded, out of work during the holidays
  A surprise Facebook greeting from Guy Max Orlovitz
  unsuccessful dating! ....Peggy T,...but Dr Linda B remained...
  New Years Eve dinner at Takara (sans Suzy - with Chris - substantial relationship))
  SF Ballet nutcracker with the children - beautiful and opulent but distant
  Tara Mc.... a new lady,  tenant in my cottage
  DPI reunion last Aug and seeing all (Janice Thorburg, Puorros, et al...)
  meetings with Shir Hadash and Rabbi Melanie + the yahrzeits she mentioned this year
  Jeannes old trailer moved early in year to Laverne, filled now with books & donations
  meetings with JCC re art
  Meeting with John and Deirdre at Zelda's + Dr Linda first meeting....
  A good conversation with Bennett
  Great printing on fabric at DPI in SF
  A Visit to the NW to see Rhonda, Jay, Miles, Sally... barely able to walk.....
  First and last scene at F-M (Lorrett, Estrella) + subsequent writings
  Moved storage possessions to larger facility with David
  Aunt Rela passing
  Carole Sue Steen Kelly passing
  Uncle Loren passing
 Jeanne's offer to stay in SF - Jeanne to Egypt with Mark in Jan
 Late Oct Left Hip Replacement by Los Gatos Surgeon, with no time for a second opinion
 World Series Yankees + Boston at Rehab Center
 surgery trauma + rehab facility trauma and anxiety + visits
 Visits by Jeanne, R'Melanie and Anya/Kids to Rehab Center 
 Exit old redneck tenant Lisa....
 Becky's 13th b-day Bowling party
 movies: Avatar, A Christmas Carol (jim carrey), princess & the frog, planet 51,  
 bedtime stories,  g-force, (terminators with David),
 hampster super spies, distract 9 with David,  UP, 
 finding neverland, HP movie: the half-blood prince

  Severe foot surgery (and, a mediocre surgeon!) in Santa Cruz for the long-delayed 
   bunion -  Dr Lee's bad idea to postpone this for a decade+ had severe consequences ....
  Rehab for foot at Jeanne's and Mark's first house at The Villages in San Jose
  A Car accident with my daughter, who was unhurt, but, for myself,  - more  
     pain - for a few years to come
  The NutCracker - this time in Sf - inferior to San Jose - one of the last with all three children...


  A pleasant time with the children, but pain-filled first half of the year with Arthritis - albeit perhaps
   the last six months in my house of 32 years ....
  A successful surgery for my youngest daughter's Epilepsy at UCSF
    - and scorn and nausea for EIGHT years of bad medicine from STANFORD mds
  Another successful surgery for a spine fusion for moi at UCSF - relief from pain!!!! great technology and surgeon!! in SF at Jeanne' ex again refused  me to rehab at home with the children....
  Memorable readings at Jeanne's in SF....Parker....several Roman A Clef...
  The Ex went back on her promises of equal custody and an evil judge - Jean Valjean's - sided with her
  Surprise at the Evil and Brazen Lies from adults who should know better
  Spine surgery and freedom from most pain!!!! 
  Rehabbing in a home in SF.....went around Jeanne's old haunts and walks...charming neighborhoods...
  A TERRIBLE mistake to leave my house w/o being ordered to do so! 
  (my ex should've moved and been with her criminal-- 18 arrests, one felony conviction
    - Jean Valjean's judge - mixed with Cotton Mather -- thought nothing of such a 
parent-model - infinitely unjust and frustrating!)
 Re-connected with one wonderful old friend - who repaid many times over
     goodness I brought her way several decades ago! Truly, bread cast on the the waters....  
 Jean Valjean's Judge (ignores the letter AND spirit of the law)
     - an ensuing long missal to the Calif Supreme Court is in the works ....
  UNJUSTIFIED, unreasonable separation from my children, except on weekends.... has been the bane of my
  existence from this year onward...
  Resumed programming and software engineering...a very good intellectual discipline.....
  I remain FULL of art for future work, and satisfy myself for the present with revisions of previous work,    
  ....and small commissions for stock for artwork to come..... 

many fine weekend outings with my children:
   Legion of Honor in SF - wonderful Rodin sculptures aplenty!
   Palace of Fine Arts in SF - indigenous tribal art exhibits... wondrous Impressionists  
   and Dutch Masters!     a tour of SF Bay historical-Mission-Mexican history places
   for my son's class project...
   movies a plenty, and frankly the greatest enjoyment, aside from the few I've seen
   by myself has been seeing them, except for a few, with my childen, and a few with
                           a dear old friend...
                           Merrigold Hotel, 
                           John Carter
                           Sherlock Holmes A Game...
                           Cloud Atlas,
                           Big Miracle, 
                           Anna Karenina, 
                           The Hunger Games, Snow White and the Huntsman,  Brave,
                           The amazing spider-man,
                           Madagascar 3, 
                           The Hobbit, 
                           Hotel Transylvania,
                           The Avengers, Lincoln, Lincoln Vampire Killer, The Life Of Pi,
                           The Grey
Seeing my eldest daughter during the holidays - otherwise an uncommunicative -  daughter -  at the end of the year, was such a pleasure!
house-hunting with a benefactor..... successful!!!
.....found, moved 3+ hours drive from the SF Bay area - to nearly as lovely an area as the Santa Cruz Mountains, and, another chance at a startup - the 3rd time may be the charm ....already experienced two ill-fated ones - 
.....1 year each - in the dot-com era...
.....Along with many thousands of others....frustrations with WFB - now resolved to file 
a suit in Federal/State Court....


The Enescu Festival September 2013

Not to be mean-spirited, but...Why nothing about La Vampirette, that Romanian soprano with the silky voice...and.... Sting....???

BTW when did the "Enescu festival " become so prominent/famous??? It may be so only in the mind of the yahoo graduate-student hacks...although I would be the last to dispute that Enescu or Radu Lapu are great artists...... However.....neither is in the 20th century's creme de la creme of either composers or performers.... although Radu Lupu is a  wonderful musician, he could take lessons from half-a-dozen or more 20th cent musicians from  Eastern Europe... Enescu is very good, but decidedly in the 2nd rank of 20th cent composers.... again, there are half a dozen much better, and more prolific and canonical 20th cent composers -- from Mahler, Stravinsky, and Copeland, Milhaud, Delius, Vaughn-Williams onward...even omitting the darlings of the National Socialists.......what _is_ impressive is that such a small country has so many very accomplished musicians....
"THRONES" - thoughts -Reading Poetry ...+ Auden, My children and those times, Zen Judaism, Optimism


TV Mini-Series: Thrones:

"THRONES" - a few thoughts

I couldn't resist. I dipped into Game Of Thrones. A real book, (A Feast For Crows)
not the extremely well-done (but undeserved) HBO A-level-production.
But, it really doesn't matter which book one reads. They are all really
the same book. Without spoiling anything, one may count on the
Lannisters to behave consistently. And a story that flows, and flows,,,and flows...
....endlessly.... and has unlimited and unexpected twists and turns.
 Emphasis on the.....unlimited..... Martin's screenwriting - rather than any Kultur -
is evident on every page of every book.... 

Beethoven's most popular piece was "Wellington's Victory"! Shakespeare's most popular plays were the bloodiest, and of course, Histories... and especially those dealing with the Wars Of The Roses. GRR chose his underlying Zeitgeist well. GRR's series, like other very popular authors, literally flows unimpeded from his hand. Not for him Prof Tolkien or Prof Lewis's type of labor or immersion on all fronts in their worlds. No fully-shaped languages or pre-history here. Nor a lifetime of scholarship and thought. This is a true hack's series more like Dickens would have done, if he were were completely without squeamishness and not a wordsmith.  Well, the public, such as it was, from Homer and Torah onward, have loved depictions of blood, death, rape, destruction, and magic. They have also loved style and poetry with those. None of the latter here...After a reading of one of GRR's behemoths, a reader who has read even a few of the best of the 20th Cent. will see that those aspects are omnipresent except the last two.  Is life long enough to read GRR, when one could forever re-read Tolkien, Lewis, Milton, Dickens, Malory, Shakespeare, Homer,  etc.? GRR is worth reading once only, if you have the time. It is unlikely that you will reread him, since there is always something newer and perhaps darker and bloodier down the road, and if we are lucky, wittier. Can one call GRR's quips wit rather than sarcasm? Note, great work invariably draws the reader or viewer or listener back endlessly. Not bloody likely for GRRs great entertainments.

The series has been called "inspired drivel". ....perhaps...but a better questions is....
will any book ever be re-read?. Does anyone actually have the time when so much else
is in the pipeline, esp heaps, for the public which craves darkness, death, violence, rape, brutality - in short, humanity without much poetry and wit - GRRs books will never be on any serious reader's list of "great" books, unless their perspective is very limited. However, GRR has obviously tapped into the vast majority of readers and listeners since Homer, who are addicted to fire and brimstone... lucky for him.

If one has time without end, one can start a series that goes on forever, but which will
never end. _Can_ never end. Does anyone really have time without end? Why would a professional writer not understand that readers/listeners of work for the masses must have closure, rather than uncertainty? 

A writer for the masses, without poetry or wit or learning (think Dickens or Shakespeare
or Tolkien) _must_ tell a story with an ending.

I couldn't resist reading one of GRR's big first four, as I mentioned.
It reads like James Patterson, minus necessary exposition.
It all reads like a screenplay. At least least Rowling had a relatively
complete world to present, and closure. Too much is unrevealed,
undescribed, and without closure in GRRs writing. I include roles and landscapes,
and mores. Much is suggested....easily.  But there  is no _there_ there,
to coin a phrase. 

Unless someone knows they will live 200 years,
financially independent, and no need to be productive, Tolkien and other
canonical literature remain exquisite pathways for serious readers, and for
readers who love alternative realities. (That pretty much includes all of us, no?)

One may have the pleasure of remembering 
 and re-experiencing the times spent with children.
Those times pass soooo quickly....but the pleasure remains... 
I had the great pleasure to spend nearly every weekend for more than a decade, with my two youngest children, taking them everywhere they loved to go:
parks, ocean, a walk to a nearby stream, racing around playgrounds... LOTR, 
countless other movies, regular but too infrequent concerts, dining, bookstores.... 
...letting them wander.... and experiencing their simple happy existences with them....
...few pleasures in life compare to being with one's children...and... those memories now are so wonderful...

DA's software is inconsistent: one day I can upload a poem,
the next not, although choosing the same category ...
its so bloody frustrating....

The poetry that looks..... outward.... lasts ....that which looks away from local and small matters, 
in an extraordinary fashion, lasts alsol... Auden may be the master across many centuries
with that tendency...

I cannot help but consider the character of the person, and inherent wisdom,
or especially the lack of it, as part of the package. I think Eliot's pretension, arrogance
and antisemitism will finally bring down his seemingly established standing... this was
already being said within a few decades of his passing....and... Auden's sheer breadth
of thought, though sometimes maddeningly obscure and opaque, will raise him higher....despite his
large blind spots... refusal to see the truth of the stereotypical when it is largely true...
is a maddening trait in Auden...

Once in awhile I do "confessional" poetry. Its not highly regarded except
by the politically correct, or unless its by Joyce Carol Oates. However, I understand
the motivation, and the Muse....
The longest-lasting poetry seems to be by those who are simply pursuasive
and/or suggestive to a high degree. ....just as my professors suggested...

Emily Dickenson - mistakenly called a miniaturist and the origin with Whitman,
of American confessional poetry...all arguable.... she's far more than that...
Her exquisite craftsmanship is only the surface...

Some obvious examples of long-lasting poetry....that by high masters of the lyric,
or the Ballade, or by the masters of the psyche,  and by those masters of the epic
- whether public or private epics, mythological or masters of high occasions..... the last century or two: Auden, Yeats, Keats, Coleridge, Byron, Shelley....
....truly with Antennae, per old 'Ez ...

...even Tennyson, so much of his time, so personal, so flowery so often....will last...
he has so many good unforgettable lines.....not to last...

My subjects for poetry, are emotions, recollected in (relative) tranquility,
...suspension of disbelief (...the two last concepts conceived not be me of course)
art, historical and intellectual history, my children,  psychology, polemics.....
from some simple perspectives to to the outre, obscure, and conceits embodied...
On DA Prose:

Much prose on DA reminds the reader inexorably of Rowland's execrable style (only suited to be dramatically rewritten scripts for A-pictures. It is actually painful to hear the words of her books read aloud. ) 
So.... tighten up - have someone read through your work, and delete all the unnecessary words.
 There are almost always many.... Then, you will find it much more enjoyable to read your own work.
 The plot and characters must show signs of flesh and blood - humanity, imagination, and character development along the course of the story. Please don't neglect those either. 

In short, re-read Strunk and White, take their advice, and you will have an excellent
 story on your hands, from what I see is a great incident - imagined or recalled.... an epiphany, 
an idea, a meme, a theory, a theme, or ... a character ..... 

If you can find a good reader, have them take a go at it, and see how it sounds when
 read aloud --  from that will emerge more ideas where to edit for length - or - add exposition.

In Memoriam - Elegy For Another Spirit's Passing

You left an evening in Winter – December or before

All my Decembers have been foreboding

(Foreboding a few weeks, then light, and squeals)

But the day I heard you had left

The Roses were still in their Vases

An Old Table was set as it was, so ancient,

Notes seen and heard lingered as before, and

The White Owl hooted and almost swooped inside

Hooted through out the night

Hooted through out the night

As before and still does, at the deepest time,

When I'm thinking, -- sleeping, dreaming,

At that time, when I had thought of eternity shared

An eternity a waited -- for spirits split for millennia, then -- rejoined

But something surfaced, persisted, materialized for you

Ending an epoch  -- and pulled you to that distant shore

And I was not surprised

And I was happy for you

The Owl still hoots, and there are still songs and dreams

For the Owl to relate


Resurrecting My Own Poetry

Upon A Night

A quiet night bedeviled
by more that gnaws then heals
as solitude, which is by all
accounts quiet balm, but not to me
who must now seek my own
the true offspring old men
so lately crave, as they when young
- so more it tore at them then for years
while wasting and frittering
on work we knew would lead no where
we would arrive happily.
Hence the Art which still remains
so silent that few, a few
who know their own 'let rivers
as I have learned those small rivers
of life's great flows of people, events
proceeding from place to place
from place to place.


       Love's Winding's

It is always saddening when
Two souls who knew and met
On Another Earth pass by
Each, One who knows, and
One who doesn't, or care
Nor feel the Phantom Cord
That will be left to Disappear
And not provide the better
New family warmth amidst
A grimy and mean and dumb
Society peopled by Jean Valjean's
Insect Judge, and those, who young,
And Schooled without  a parent
Without the empathy of Arts
That are unknown, so fine and pure
And hardly no one is suspecting, in
The age of Oprah and Pols and Rap
That stay the partnerships  of better
So much that evolution itself
will halt, and you will still mark
these words or mock these words
and only one's white plume will still
haunt and last to the last,
and to the last small breath
that I hope shall be briefly forgotten –
but never for ever, and Never for ever
Love's searches for another.

Sidney Orlovitz

I have noticed that among a very few other celebs, Renee Fleming is not full of herself, and is one of the least pretentious celebs I have observed in 4 decades or so:…
Something more for National Poetry Month in April 2013: George Seferis

Στο περιγιάλι το κρυφό
κι άσπρο σαν περιστέρι
διψάσαμε το μεσημέρι•
μα το νερό γλυφό.

Πάνω στην άμμο την ξανθή
γράψαμε τ' όνομά της•
ωραία που φύσηξεν ο μπάτης
και σβήστηκε η γραφή.

Με τι καρδιά, με τι πνοή,
τι πόθους και τι πάθος
πήραμε τη ζωή μας• λάθος!
κι αλλάξαμε ζωή.

In a hidden seashore
white as a dove
we found ourselves in midday, thirsty,
but the water undrinkable.

On the golden sand
we wrote her name,
how beautifully the breeze came
and erased the writing.

We started our life with all our heart,
all our breath, all our passion -- a mistake!
and we changed our life.…
......put another can't go home again...

AUDEN limerick by dofaust

I am somewhat into Carpenter's Auden biography. Its dense, and rewarding,
although a reader might not like what they read.
Remember some of the best of Auden though:
"Again, while it is a great blessing that a man no longer has to be rich in order to enjoy the masterpieces of the past, for paperbacks, first-rate color reproductions, and stereo-phonograph records have made them available to all but the very poor, this ease of access,  if misused — and we do misuse it — can become a curse. We are all of us tempted to read more books, look at more pictures, listen to more music than we can possibly absorb, and the result of such gluttony is not a cultured mind but a consuming one; what it reads, looks at, listens to is immediately forgotten, leaving no more traces behind than yesterday's newspaper."
— W. H. Auden, Secondary Worlds (1967)

Is this prescient, or not????
"Lullaby" by W.H. Auden

"Lay your sleeping head, my love,
Human on my faithless arm;
Time and fevers burn away
Individual beauty from
Thoughtful children, and the grave
Proves the child ephemeral:
But in my arms till break of day
Let the living creature lie,
Mortal, guilty, but to me
The entirely beautiful.

Soul and body have no bounds:
To lovers as they lie upon
Her tolerant enchanted slope
In their ordinary swoon,
Grave the vision Venus sends
Of supernatural sympathy,
Universal love and hope;
While an abstract insight wakes
Among the glaciers and the rocks
The hermit's carnal ecstasy.

Certainty, fidelity
On the stroke of midnight pass
Like vibrations of a bell
And fashionable madmen raise
Their pedantic boring cry:
Every farthing of the cost,
All the dreaded cards foretell,
Shall be paid, but from this night
Not a whisper, not a thought,
Not a kiss nor look be lost.

Beauty, midnight, vision dies:
Let the winds of dawn that blow
Softly round your dreaming head
Such a day of welcome show
Eye and knocking heart may bless,
Find our mortal world enough;
Noons of dryness find you fed
By the involuntary powers,
Nights of insult let you pass
Watched by every human love."

January 1937

The Brits - humour, Ramblings, More Poetry, Zen Judaism:

Horsemeat in Britain - didn't take long

Within hours of the news that Tesco's  'all beef hamburgers'  contained 30% horse meat, these quips hit the Internet:

 I'm so hungry, I could eat a horse … I guess Tesco just listened.
 Anyone want a burger from Tesco? Yay or neigh?
 Not entirely sure how Tesco are going to get over this hurdle.
 Waitress in Tesco asked if I wanted anything on my Burger … so I had a £5 each way bet!
 Had some burgers from Tesco for my tea last night … I still have a bit between my teeth.
 A woman has been taken into hospital after eating horse meat burgers from Tesco. Her condition is said to be stable.
 Tesco's now testing all their vegetarian burgers for traces of unicorn.
 I've just checked the Tesco burgers in my freezer ... AND THEY'RE OFF.
 Tesco now forced to deny presence of zebra in burgers, as shoppers confuse barcodes for serving suggestions.
 Said to the missus, "These Tesco burgers  'ave given me terrible trots."
 To beef or not to beef. That is equestrian.
 A cow walks into a bar. Barman says, "Why the long face?". Cow says "Illegal ingredients, coming over here stealing our jobs!"
 I hear the smaller version of those Tesco burgers make great horse d'oeuvres.

These Tesco burger jokes are going on a bit. Talk about flogging a dead …
I dipped into Zarathustra recently, and wish I could remember the title of some of his other writings
- which were more humane.

I concluded again that all the best of FN is contained in other philosopher,
and traditions, PLUS, the concepts of good and evil, right vs wrong,
the need to _resist_ evil (un-Zen and unchristian though that may be...)
- most of all the need to actually do _good_ in the world,
and behave ethically, noticeably so... there's few traditions, 
religious or secular, that speak about that so specifically as  
the Hellenes and the Hebrews....they both share a scorn, 
at their core, for superstition and magic; and share a reverence for the
 concept of the individual as a universe,
and as a part of the whole...for whom, it is a good thing to sacrifice that
individual universe at certain times....c.f., Leonidas.... the Maccabees.... 
My goodness is that concept lost in much of the modern western world!

I read quite a bit of Nietzsche, not necessarily Zarathustra itself
- a century or so ago as a student in the humanities,
and found him rather self-centered then, and now.
And, there is a _lot_ more to Nietsche than Zarathustra....
He's a product of the most sublime poetry, music, and song,
written by German-speaking artists for a century before him...
He's a serious _self_-help guru - not apparently interested 
in the good of the whole tribe. And, not given overmuch 
to pure kindness, i.e.., a good deed or deeds, and ethical behavior,
and the concept of "improving the world" (as opposed to improving oneself,
which is taken for _granted_ nearly everywhere else except by Herr Friedrich)

But I noticed a strange thing somewhere elsewhere in his writings --
Have you noticed that he has a sense of humor?

Kubrick matched the music's title _perfectly_ with the
action, in regard to using the Zarathustra piece in 2001. Seen that??


I have worked my through most of Robert Parker's "Spenser" books - almost twice in the past three years - its wonderful escapist fare - for me, at least.... I just finished LeCarre's "The Mission Song" ...and found the style more interesting than the substance - almost the opposite of Mr Parker's Cowboy ethic.... But, I will certain read more quite overdue to return to John Fowles, and Borges, and storytelling mastery..The "Patterson" genre is OK, but, I also recently read "The Butterfly And The Diving Bell", and "Bury My Heart At Wounded Knee".... ..and found both style and (heartbreaking) substance..... recently read Asimov's "Foundation"...and in short, found it wanting in quality, and Asimov to be overrated as a writer, not a stylist, or master of character, does not begin to approach Tolkien in the related Genres... except of course for his sheer prolific polymath accomplishments....Have discovered Carlos Fuentes - in translation, at least, and his delightful very recent Grand Guignolish "VLAD"
"Grateful Children" is one of the truest oxymorons.
It was an oxymoron from the beginning. Shakespeare wrote
a great play with the concept.
Zen Judaism
                   (....revisited from my journal of years ago)


If there is no self, whose arthritis is this?

(or... anxiety... )

Be here now.
Be someplace else later.
Is that so complicated?

Drink tea and nourish life.
With the first sip... joy.
With the second... satisfaction.
With the third, peace.
With the fourth, a danish.

Wherever you go, there you are.
Your luggage is another story.

Accept misfortune as a blessing.
Do not wish for perfect health
Or a life without problems.
What would you talk about?

The journey of a thousand miles
Begins with a single "oy."

There is no escaping karma.
In a previous life, you never called, you never wrote, you never
And whose fault was that?

Zen is not easy.
It takes effort to attain nothingness.
And then what do you have?

The Tao does not speak.
The Tao does not blame.
The Tao does not take sides.
The Tao has no expectations.
The Tao demands nothing of others.
The Tao is not Jewish.

Breathe in. Breathe out.
Breathe in. Breathe out.
Forget this and attaining Enlightenment will be the least of your

Let your mind be as a floating cloud.
Let your stillness be as the wooded glen.
And sit up straight.
You'll never meet the Buddha with such rounded shoulders.

Be patient and achieve all things.
Be impatient and achieve all things faster.

To Find the Buddha, look within.
Deep inside you are ten thousand flowers.
Each flower blossoms ten thousand times.
Each blossom has ten thousand petals.
You might want to see a specialist.

To practice Zen and the art of Jewish motorcycle maintenance, do the
Get rid of the motorcycle.
What were you thinking?

Be aware of your body.
Be aware of your perceptions.
Keep in mind that not every physical sensation is a symptom of a
terminal illness.

The Torah says, "Love thy neighbor as thyself."
The Buddha says there is no "self."
So, maybe you are off the hook.

My move - from near-homelessness - wrought by an uncaring woman, and followed by years
of living on the kindness of friends - is nearly done. Literally, blood sweat and tears to move a hoarder's
several households assembled over the years.....

A new abode - in mountains near Yosemite -  Coarsegold -  unfortunately nearly 200 miles away - awaits a monstrous move of of my dusty belongings...

A start-up IT company is beckoning - the possibility of great things -

I have a great case building for recusing and impeaching a municipal judge - the modern-day equivalent of Jean Valjean's judge...

Recently, I attended services and said Kaddish for my Mother's Yahrzeit, as I do for my parents, brother, and Grandparents.

I shall defer suggesting the downside of any of the above or other matters .....all the downsides seem very unlikely, at least....
A fine and discerning article thefantasim just wrote on the gothic and horror groups on DA:

 For many years, my own horror scenes have been
from dreams of unique and gothic places recalled with horror, primarily those that
were encountered during a time of depression: a funery flower arrangement
strikes such a chord - have you ever experienced the sudden depression,
or fright, or anxiety, from a _place_?


Its an interesting environment here.  I would never think of 
making a low-class or red-neck comment. (an oft-heard complaint
by glamour artists.) I'm just old-fashioned, I suppose.

However, there a lot of DAers -- shall we say, with relatively low educational
levels here....  (If you doubt the posts on the glamour art pages here...

And, many assume that if a woman poses nude, and only presents
"glamour"/modern poses,  that the message
she is sending is that she _wants_ and expects attention from
the lower-classes.  I don't know what to say about that, except that
most nude glamour models here, although with gorgeous exteriors,
are a little dim and naive. Proof? .......They often misunderstand
CONSTRUCTIVE criticism of their photographer, and abruptly block
w/o trying to communicate. Even native English speakers. I kid you not. Try it.

In any case, I avoid these glamour-oriented groups and photographers,
 for the simple reason that there is not any art but a little decorative art, 
and eye-candy, primarily.
(Also, if one wants major-league photographers in all genres, DA is not the
best place to look. Flickr for instance is uniformly higher-quality photography.

If one suggests to a great model that she and her photographer that they
try classic poses and stock, such as lockstock, they don't know what one
is talking about. The vast majority of the glamour models here, are Prima Donnas,
and I especially, having known one  such, intimately, for several years, know the type.

Isn't it a tad hypocritical to admire the US, as one of the few places in the world where can openly admire nazi ideals, without much legal danger? Whose side would those be, on the eve of WWII (or WWI), if they were of German ancestry and had grown up here or were US citizens? It seems that _almost_ none of those many thousands left the US - some told their relatives in Germany that they "...would see them in their gunsights..." - rather than return to a rotten "Fatherland" - haha - and of course none of them, or their descendants, I observe, has any use for the Nazis, and their small minds. So...I do think it is hypocritical that the US in general, and DA in particular, are used as their forum. 
"The Mills Of The Gods Are Slow, But Surely Do They Reap..." 

BTW the hidden comments were from years ago, from the time of the Diva on DA
who left abruptly, abandoning many admirers here (both of her singing, and, art)
- and who I blasted, admittedly, when I was angry. Psychologists define Anger clinically as a failure to understand some event, person, situation.... and therefore perceive a great injustice - hence anger. In other words, anger arises out of a lack of understanding - consciously or unconsciously..... I believe my anger at the Diva's bad and rude behaviour - for which she is very famous, of course - or..... the cult-worship, arises from my failure to understand that, despite quantities great and enduring light and beauty, there is truly evil about in the world. And, we have "free will" to actually CHOOSE to be evil. I am ashamed that I had forgotten the lessons of Milton's Lucifer, and even Faust for that matter. And here I who professed to be a literary scholar with a knowledge of the humanities!! 

I was a tad naive to be surprised at the fringes
on DA - and here I am - on another fringe of sorts!!
But at least my genres are about strange forms of pleasure and mutual respect, and are the opposite of destructive, murderous, genocidal thinking.
However, I refuse to communicate with anyone who is sympathetic to National Socialism. I have seen too much of it, and it is simply incredible ignorance to attempt communication with that sort - they really don't want to communicate via art or any other method, in any case, they have an Agenda, and that's all they can see and hear in their mind.

Actually, it _would_ be ridiculous to leave DA because of encountering evil. 
Murderous, genocidal, mindless evil - professing National Socialism of
all things. I pointed out that that didn't turn out too well for Germany, since
apart from the destruction, it will mar the work of German Artists and Scientists, 
indeed, as I know now, all native German speakers, for a few hundred years.
It doesn't matter that the Anglo Saxons and their Allies practically invented least it never rose to level of cult-worship, where it has been practiced
even better than the Nazis if sheer millions killed are considered. But to make 
it into a cult, in the face of so much else that is good and admirable in human 
history, especially here - is simply beyond the pale.  I'll stick to my little
bits of the outre-avant-garde - industrial+SM topics if I want to move toward the edge of human experience that can be explored in art....

Especially in a place of art and beauty, no matter how avant-garde or outre.
I have done enough that are those, to know! But, one must simply be aware that
there really is evil in the world, and misguided souls. Profoundly misguided.
I wish that they could see that old "Twilight Zone" episode, where a very - very - young, Dennis Hopper, looking more Aryan than humanly possible, and portraying 
a Nazi anti-semite,  wakes up to find himself with a yellow star on his clothes - in a German-speaking country, just before the Shoa, I believe, and with predictable results. Shades of Ebenezeer Scrooge!
I have discovered a wondrously hypocritical and horrific page at DA, 
I thought of leaving DA, since I encountered SO MANY hate-mongers,
and SO MANY uncommunicative Prima Donnas.

As I said to one especially popular hate-monger, a lover of National Socialism:

I notice that you have nothing about any period of German history other than that
of the Reich. And, of the history of the Reich, nothing is discussed in any detail
that scholars might be interested in. As a result, your perspectives of that time are shallow and stereotypical. 
Consider study of German history to reveal the likely sources of National Socialism.
Here is a hint: you will see little or nothing of value 
that directly relates to National Socialism in Friedrich Nietsche's writings.  It is  
a  popular misconceptions and misreading of Nietsche, that is obvious after only a few minutes reading FN.
No matter what perspective one has of National Socialism, it was a catastrophe for German-speaking people
everywhere, and of course for Germany itself. Aside from the devastation, which you note, you appear to not
have noticed that it thoroughly discredited Germany and its culture, and will do so for several centuries to come. 
Consider the extreme hypocrisy and genocide, that the Anglo-Saxons perpetrated on the Indigenous
Indian Tribes in The Americas in the Nineteenth Century. But, that was only a pale shadow of the
institutionalized Evil that was National Socialism.

  • Listening to: truly eclectic AND canonical: see sdorr on youtube
  • Reading: H. Carpenter\\\'s biographies..
  • Watching: usual...canonical AND outre
  • Playing: ... Please see my sdorr youtube favs
  • Eating: ....well, sparingly...
  • Drinking: water, green teas, light tonic, cab sav, caffe...

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Time Management: A synopsys recently provided to me:

1. Make three lists, with 5 tasks/goals on each, of all your goals and projects, the first for the most important, the 2nd for the next 5, etc.

2. divide all the items on list 1 into smaller pieces,
- very small pieces if possible - 10-15 minute pieces -with prerequisites for each piece.

3. do at least 3 small _pieces_ each day on the most important, and if time permits, on the next item on the list.

4. Move items from list 2 onto list 1, and from list 3 onto list 2.

5. Have an activity available for the other side of the brain, if one has had to spend 1 hr+ on a stressful activity. Spend at least 30 minutes/day or throughout a day, breaking up more serious work with timeouts for more playful or humane pursuits.
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